I think I broke up with Jessica. She was vague about it.

I feel bad about it. But I also know I'll be fine.
I'm about done with this falling-in-love thing.
It's exhausting and I end up feeling apathetic and stuff afterwards.

Here's a piece I was working on until I found out. Something changed after that...I don't feel like finishing it any more. I'll do something better.

new tablet's nice. big. bamboo fun, from a friend.

wonder if she still looks at this...? hafta do new proj for guzman's art 1-2 class. i think it's the closure i want. saw her w/ a painting by someone else, taking it home. was wondering if she wanted me to see that. sounds like sumthing she'd do.

said hi to her three times monday. didn't notice. why bother talking? she just wanted to pick fights, apparently. it's weird now.

hafta make batman/joker drawing sometime for greg. i'll try, but i have trouble planning things out and drawing them. rather be spontaneous, or just do nothing. my head hurts. damn vicodin.

i have to work on the shirt for acdec. dont have that much time anymore tho. i would like to do it, i just dont know if i can do it well with the little time i have.

I have not been able thus far to make myself do anything of value. Mostly, I've been wasting time drawing stuff. I need to buy a scanner so I can actually upload that stuff. Right now, my only scanner is broken and shitty besides, which is ridiculous given the massive amount of computer hardware I otherwise have lying around the house.

Meh.

My grades in school have been pretty bad. I don't know why especially; I've been hit hardest in stuff I'm normally good at, like history and science. Course, Gorton doesn't really teach physics, she just runs a concept through her head and then expects you to be able to think of it yourself... I am managing a B in Pre-calc, tho, which is astounding given I don't remember anything at all from algebra last year.

I am still wondering what I'm going to do with myself when I grow up. Or if I even want to go to college. I doubt I'm smart enough to do what I want to do. My rate of learning is so inefficient at this point that I can only manage to get Cs by studying all night everyday until I fall asleep on my books...I am still a c-average student, by the way. I have no idea why this is not working.

And looking at a picture of Angelina Jolie, I realize that I do not think her lips are beautiful, only freakishly large.

I removed the second artgrind sketch. now there is only one, and it even has a "_1" in the title, making it irritating.